Reflections in life's mirror

I'm trying not to weaken and break out in tears but I'm thoughtless and i cant find my face in the mirror.its fogging i cant see into my own eyes. i cant tell if I'm looking forward or back. I've run through all the options and i cant find the piece to the puzzle. first I'm in then I'm out I'm chasing my own footsteps. I'm going in circles help me find my way, pick me up and support me through my time of sorrow as i did for you. I'm calling on the phone but no one answers, its a one way line.passing the door i think i'll knock but when i do it turns to vapor i breath in and it floats around my head.it cant be done alone it has to be won by a team, but i'm always picked last. in the middle once again i cant get away. i looked for the key but it has hidden. it hides in the spark of light you feel when you pass a secrete lover in the night. or in the sent of the first kiss. its the color of the first song you cried to. its the sound of the Beatles on a summer day. its the feeling that you get when you look around and realize you are truly happy. its that perfect photo of your children, wrinkled and torn from being remembered one too many times. Magic nights after the ice-cream and sparklers are all gone, and catching the lightning bug is the only worry in the world. its waiting to be found by the one who remembers the one with love in their heart and fear behind them. in the end i will find my key until then i will have to face my fears and i will have to fight my nightmares with my dreams. i am still slow and in the dark i am wrestling with a force i cannot see. but when i find my key i will break through the mirror to the other side to see that i was the reflection of a boy but now those years are gone and i now have my own boy, for i am a man and i may still have great fears but they are no longer within they are behind and only catch up when i lose my key.